Sometimes it takes a while to really kick something into gear. Or you start something and then you put it aside, knowing it will be there when you need it again. It's the reason I always give books to kids at Christmas and why I gave my teenage cousin a nice journal for her birthday. Even if she tossed it on her closet floor, it's there for her, ready to be close to her heart if she needs it.
So here I am in a new state meandering into a new phase of life, that is if you see life as a series of phases instead of a constant flow. I go back and forth...ebb, if you will.
I'm a full-time job-seeker these days, spending the late morning and early afternoon hours doing what can be done to find a meaningful place of employment. It's been a little while now, a while filled with resumes and cover letters and cold calls and drop-ins. Today I'm a little stuck...I can't presently call any of the organizations to which I have sent a cover letter or job-inquiry because I have contacted all of them within the past three days. There's a fine line between persistent and annoying; though I feel as though I really don't have much to lose, I don't mind trying to find that line. But GOD. Employ me already.
Not that I'm really starting to feel bad or anxious about being in this position. I get a little worried about money as my stash of it dwindles down and I become more and more dependent on my ridiculously wonderful partner-in-crime. But, however, nevertheless, I push forward knowing that this too shall end and that I am not to blame for this predicament. I'm trying and really searching for something meaningful.
Because we spend so much time working, being occupied with something, putting our energy into things. You know that. My meticulous tea-drinking time now is time well spent because I am putting my heart into this process. I'll get somewhere.
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