It's the format I like best

Self-indulgent, yes. A little mainstream, well who isn't. A certain spin and style is added to words that have the possibility of being viewed by others. So here I am. Again.

Not sure exactly what to do or where to go from here. I've been feeling stuck inside my own head lately; there's so much that I want to dooooo but I can't seem to force it through my pores and materialize it. I need something to push me out of me, I need a forum or an excuse to start the things I want to start so that I don't just sit here thinking of things I want to do instead of doing them. That's too easy a loop to get stuck in. I ain't havin' none of that.

(Self-judging statements like that are the first step to combating apathy...make yourself a teensy bit disgusted with yourself and maybe you'll get on the road to changing your life a bit sooner than you would otherwise.)

I need an ambition to work towards, some sort of larger goal that requires daily goals more challenging than "do laundry" or "sort recyclables." Not that those aren't important. ...and I need to acknowledge and make real my hobbies and interests, ask myself what I like to do and take the time to really listen to my answer. I need to discover what makes me me, because I think that sometimes I get lost inside here. Here being my head or my heart or my soul or just literally here, wherever here may be.

This is a step in a direction, though whether it is right is left to be seen.